I Will Always Love You 私は常に愛する

2010年6月29日星期二

Woohoo~~~

I know this sound a bit awkward, but i think i'm doing good in everything now.

I mean i know how to manage my time to do things now.
I can easily catch up the emotions now.
I just know how to deal with two stuff in one time.

And hell no i'm not showing off or whatsoever.
It just suddenly i got this feeling.

Man, hope this will continue.
As it really helps out building my confident.
I know i can done things in just the right time.
My confident just came back when this feeling show up.
Sure thing i really wants it to continue.

Buddha bless me.
*
Woohoo~
Brasil make it!!!

Go Brasil!
I know you guys are the great!
Next one to defeat is Netherland.

You guys can do it easily.
You guys are the best!

No wonder i choose you guys.
You guys just prove to be the best!
Oh my~
I'm sorry i couldnt catch the match sometimes.
But i'm always supporting you guys.

Woohoo~
Let's target it to the final!
xD
*
Another good news!
He wants to come back during Chinese New Year!

I know there's six month to go, still i cant hide this exciment.
Haha~

Ok.
So he moved to a new room.
Working place is getting much more better.

Oh my~
I cant write anything cause that exciment had cost lots of words.
Haha~
Do excuse me.

Anyway, i just miss you.
(Cant wait. Hope time flies now. xD)

2010年6月27日星期日

恭喜！

刚刚和表姐还有家人从1u回来。

那天约了表姐去看《Toy Story 3》。
我们没有看3d啦~
只是普通的2d。

不知是我们长大了，还是什么的。
总觉得，没有了我们小时候那种滋味。
反而多了一点大人世界的观点。
Andy也长大了，要进大学了。
所以说，Andy是差不多跟我一样的心态。
要面对小时候的玩具，该丢，该捐出来，还是该收着。

我们人就是酱。
当我们踏入另一个阶段，我们必须得放弃一些小时候的东西。
哪怕只是你最喜爱的玩具。
另一面来说，我们也得学会放下。
放下那些曾经陪伴我们的东西。
放下这段感情来面对更多的挑战。
人生就是这么的一段小插曲。
*
昨晚看了第21届台湾金曲奖。

前面的红地毯是那么多届以来最失望的一次。
可能是当时的天气不作美。
下了一场大雨。
很多嘉宾都没来得及走，就匆匆忙忙赶进现场了。
而且两位主持人也没能把的住场面。
很多次的冷场，也蛮多废话。
有点显得两位不是很默契。

还好进到里面，哈林和小s都发挥了他们的默契和才华，心情才不是那么严重被影响。
哈林和小s都做到很好。
果然还是比较有资深比较有场面看。=p

再次恭喜陶喆和阿密特获得这次的大奖。
老实说，阿密特是大概猜到了啦~
不过陶喆还是真爆冷。
最初是看好林俊杰还是方大同。
可是当伍佰宣布是陶喆时，我还有点反应不来。
我还以为是我听错了呢~
不过还是再次恭喜啦~

恭喜恭喜！
*
呵呵~
昨天和他视频了。
还看到他裸上半身。
*去拿纸巾先*
不过当我们视频完了，我才发现我忘了。。。
哈哈~
不告诉你。
^^

还是替他感到高兴。
不过看到他的工作时间还是有点心疼。
每天都酱“早”睡。
现在还从四点半就开工了。
唉~
我能做什么。
只能祈祷他不会病倒了。

亲爱的，我想你。。。

2010年6月25日星期五

Bad by Michael Jackson

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Your butt is mine
gonna tell you right
Just show your face in broad daylight.
I’m telling you on how I feel
Gonna hurt your mind
don’t shoot to kill
Come on
come on
lay it on me
all right.
I’m giving you on count of three
To show your stuff or let it be.
I’m telling you
just watch your mouth
I know your game
what you’re about.
they say the sky’s the limit
and to me that’s really true
my friend
you have seen nothing
just wait ’til I get through -
Because I’m bad
I’m bad - come on
You know I’m bad
I’m bad - you know it!
You know I’m bad
I’m bad - come on
And the whole world has to answer right now
Just to tell you once again who’s bad!
The word is out
you’re doin’ wrong
Gonna lock you up before too long.
your lyin’ eyes gonna tell you right
So listen up
don’t make a fight!
Your talk is cheap
you’re not a man
Wou’re throwin’ stones to hide your hands.
they say the sky’s the limit
and to me that’s really true
my friend
you have seen nothing
just wait ’til I get through -
Because I’m bad
I’m bad - come on
You know I’m bad
I’m bad - you know it!
You know I’m bad
I’m bad - come on
And the whole world has to answer right now
Just to tell you once again who’s bad!
We can change the world tomorrow
this could be a better place
If you don’t like what I’m sayin’
then won’t you slap my face -
Because I’m bad
I’m bad - come on
You know I’m bad
I’m bad - you know it!
You know I’m bad
I’m bad - come on
And the whole world has to answer right now
Just to tell you once again who’s bad!
You know I’m bad
I’m bad - come on
You know I’m bad
I’m bad - you know it!
You know I’m bad
And the whole world has to answer right now
Just to tell you once again who’s bad!
You know I’m smooth
I’m bad - you know it
You know I’m bad
I’m bad
You know
you know it - come on
And the whole world has to answer right now
Just to tell you once again.
You know I’m bad
I’m bad - you know it
You know I’m bad
I’m bad - you know!
You know I’m bad
I’m bad - you know it
you know
And the whole world has to answer right now
Just to tell you once again. Who’s bad?
*
Still cant shake that feeling off that he's gone for one year.
I still can remember my reaction when i first got the news.
It's always been a blessed to be inspired by him.

Listen to his song for the whole day.
And i felt a mixture of sad and happy.
Sad, he just gone. So soon.
Happy, he's cradling in the arms of God.

As a memoir of him, i've selected my all-time favourite song of his.
This song once, i thought, sang my heart out.
This song once, inspired me to learn dancing and i did.
This song once, makes me just wanna shake my body without other people's eyes.

Michael Jackson, you will still remain in my heart.
Rest In Peace, my dearest legend star...
*
Woa~
I'm trying to pray hard that i can manage my time.

I wish i can coped my time for studies and extra-curiculum as well.
Of course for my families, friends, and him.

Start to feel a bit anxoius now.
Still am always hoping for the best that i can devoted myself to all the activites.

Dear Buddha, you gotta help me.
Give me strength to conquer all the challenges that i'm going to face.
Help me to build up my confident whenever there's a fall.
Solidified my passion to make things go easy on the edge.
I promise i wont let anyone down.
I promise.
*
Seems like he's doing fine at his workplace.
So far no ugly comments about his work.
I really do hope everything will work out well there.

Dear, i'm sorry that maybe in the future i might unable to chat much with you.
Activies, assignments, presentations are starting to bury me.
But do not worry about me.
I am confident enough to survive through it.
Just concentrate on your present now.
Enjoy every moment that you are living now.
Of course, do take enough rest before the illness come to you.

I miss you...

2010年6月23日星期三

我的天！

我的天啊~
最近的脾气都很暴躁。
到底是发生了什么事？
为什么会这样？

是因为不够睡眠吗？
是因为最近功课多吗？
是因为我就是这样的，都很难改掉的？

唉~
只希望我这个脾气不会得罪人。。。
*
法国回家了！
当然回啦~
都不是很厉害。
当时只是应该出钱买回来的。
现在该回家啦~

巴西！
你要加油哦~
现在可能失去了卡卡，不过你们还是最强的！
现在目标进到十六强。
要加油加油！！！

你一定可以的！！！
*
很想念他哦~

虽然最近都在用Msn聊天，可是心还是不由自主地飞越那片大海。

他在那边都很不错了。
工作上也还好没什么刁难的人。
可能只是顾客偶尔会出些难招。

亲爱的，要加油哦~
不用想我太多哦~
专心工作就可以了。
^^
很想你哦~

2010年6月21日星期一

Cool down...

Argh~
Can someone just slap me just before my volcano burst out?

I mean all these assignment!
They coming in like flood.
I cant stop it but had to deal with it.

Ish~~~
And i just like to say sorry to my group mates.
I didnt know that my temper rise up again.
I guess when i saw the assignment brief paper, my mind just blew off.
So, ya, please accept my apology.
><

Haiz~
How i wish i can just live with it.
And stop blewing off my mind.
Ish~~~
*
Home's renovation is almost done.

My room has become prettier than ever.
Upstairs look more classy, i guess.

Room painted with purple colour.
And they just look gorgeous.
Ahh~

Man, i'm starting to love my room.
I guess i will promise to go back home everyday.
Haha~
And i guess i will tidy up my room before i leave my baby room.

Will post the picture once it done.
^^
*
He's starting to work now.
As a waiter in a restaurant near his universiti.

But he works in night shift.
Which means he start his work time at 6pm and end at 3am.
Which also means, i wont be able to chat with him now.
Haiz~

Should i just thought that this is the great opportunity to concentrate on my studies?
Should i just thought that this is the great opportunity to train myself not to think so much?
Should i treat it as it's a chance to challenge ourselves in this time?

I dont know.
And i'm too annoyed to search for the answer.

All i know, is that i will definitely pray for him.
Always take care of myself.
Be happy all the time.

I know i can do all those stuff that doesnt bug him.
I am confident that we will get together till the end.
I just know.

Dear, i just miss you again...

2010年6月19日星期六

昏昏爱睡。。。

连续两天都在Istana Budaya里面。
在里面做什么呢？
其实只是去站站局面，我们好像是去参访还是什么的。
总之我们就是去当卡里飞。

不过也很好玩啊~
认识了几位新朋友；拿到两件免费的衣服（现场卖着一件rm25）；看了一场免费的舞台剧；看到了首相了。
两天在那边也见识到了Istana Budaya的食堂价钱真的很"Istana"。
为了钱报的着想，出发前我都把肚子填饱饱，去到那边就不会一直被诱惑。

要看更多的像片，可能就要到Facebook那边去了。
因为真的拍了超多的。
*
今天家里是最肮脏的。
灰尘到完。

油漆，装修楼梯和装壁橱都在今天之内做，所以都很肮脏。
整个人都不是很舒服。
而且再加上天气的热酷，整个人都很昏昏爱睡。

哎哟~
不行啦~
要打起精神来，要专心做功课了。
功课星期二就要交了，还在这里昏昏爱睡。
加油！！！
*
我们在一起有一年了吧~
呵呵~
真可笑，我从来都不去算这些日子。
总觉得算来干嘛？
日子还不是要酱过。

不过真的很感谢他这段时间的陪伴。
日子顿时开朗起来。

记得那时我是在很低潮的时候，整个人都好像行尸走肉。
后来和他再见面，是他拉我回来。
我想，如果当时没有赴约，我想我现在还是处在那个状态，而且搞不好还更糟糕。

怎样都好，现在的他身处于台湾。
两年后，不，一年又八个月，他才会回来马来西亚。
心每天都在想念他。
每天都任由思想飞越那条隔着我们的大海。
无时无刻都希望他一切顺利。

亲爱的，我今天又想你了。
^^

2010年6月16日星期三

Happy Dragon Boat Festival!

Happy Dragon Boat Festival!

Had a feast of dumplings or glutinous rice wrap in pandan leaf.
Feels that my stomach is full of it.
But now all i want is to eat the crystal dumplings.
The one that you can eat with kaya.
Yellow in colour.
And small in size.
^.^

Also great thanks to Pee Yee.
All the way from Johor's dumplings.
It was quite nice actually.
Hope next year got a chance to eat again.
*
Sign up for volunteering in the Kita musical.
Will be going to Istana Budaya for the next two days.
Thursday and Friday.

Especially Friday.
There'll be a gala night and will be helping out too.
Hope we had a great time there.

But that also means i gotta skip class.
Haiz~
Not so cool.
Once thought i might have a chance to get full attendance for this semester.
Guess i'll just have to work harder.
*
Dear, you are going to start work soon.
And we might just dont have that much time to chat anymore.

But just to let you know, i'll always miss you.
From day to night.
Every minute, second counts.

Do take care of yourself.
I know you will do a great job there.
Concentrate more on yourself.
I know you can create a better future.

I miss you...

2010年6月14日星期一

如果有天。。。

如果有天我死了，我只希望我能以这些的方式来住在你们的心里。

如果我是自然老了而死，

请你们把我烧成灰烬，

洒向大海里，

让我有机会在海水里游泳，

游到海的另一端，

可以和海底生物结交朋友，

也可能遇到传说中的龙。

如果我是意外死的，

请把我烧成灰烬，

然后在发生意外的地点种棵树，

把我埋在树下，

好让以后经过的人可以记得这里曾经发生意外，

一定要格外小心。

如果我是自杀的话，

请把我烧成灰烬，

然后埋在一个很深远地方，

不让任何人来我这里祭拜，

因为我可能做了些没脸的事，

所以才选择这个方式来了断我自己。

如果我是因为救人而牺牲了自己，

请把我烧成灰烬，

把我的一切收拾整齐，

然后放在我最喜欢的角落，

这样每个经过那个角落的人，

我都可以微笑地打招呼，

也可以趁机说说自己的伟绩。

自己老实也不知道为什么会有以上的想法。

只知道最近翻开报纸都会看到很多血在流。

自己的心也有点隐隐作痛。

自己很想帮助，可是就是找不到理由来帮。

只能每天看着报纸，然后暗暗叹息。。。

世界杯开赛了！！！

最近也开始在追球了！

我是支持巴西队的！！！

哦~

希望今年巴西队进到最后八强。

做人不要贪心啦~

慢慢一步一步来。

先进八强，过后再来打算。

呵呵~

加油！！！

2010年6月12日星期六

I know!

It's Saturday!!!
Yea, right, Saturday.
So what?
I'm still staying in house.
Not going anywhere.
Just staying in house.

Yup.
You hear me right.
I'm staying in house.
I'm not going anywhere.

Well, mainly it's because i'm going out for the whole day tomorrow!
For college's flash mob.
Still not quite sure where we will going.
But i hope we will have more fun than ever!
*

Watch Lady Gaga's "Alejandro" mv yesterday.

Honestly, i wasnt surprised with all the concept/image effect or whatever in this video.
I mean, hello, this is Lady Gaga and this is what she famous for.
Instead, i grew more fond and respect for her.
Her guts, her creativity, her passion to all this weirdo, which she looks like doesnt care much to the media. (Or this is what i interpret myself.)

It's kinda cool watching this video.
I mean, how the hell they get all this idea to create this effect.
And i do admit, i'm totally fell in love with their creativity.
It's so cool and damn, i just love it.

Just watch it.
After all, it's the one who you decide to love or hate it.
*
Do you know that sometime i do depressed over small matter things?
Do you know that sometime i really do feel like ending my life?
Do you know that sometime i feel like rotting in the dark?
Do you know that sometime i dont feel like talking?
Do you know that sometime i just want to shut myself in?
Do you know that sometime i wish i wasnt here, in this world, at all?
Do you know that sometime i want to let go of myself and fall into an endless dark hole?
Do you know that sometime i try to be strong, but i hurt myself in the end?

I dont know how to make things happen miracously.
I dont know whether should i give up or stand still.
I dont know if i could survive till the end.
I dont know if my subconscious is letting me rot or not.
I dont know how to shut my heart and not reveal to the others.
I dont know the trick to cheer up myself up whenever i feel want to.
I dont know that i'm not a challenger instead i'm a loser.

I know i will die somehow.
I know i will rot somehow.
I know i will fall somehow.
I know i will be ignore somehow.
I know i will get angry somehow.
I know i will be frustrated somehow.
I know i will think much than ever somehow.
I know i will be in the dark room somehow.
I know i will hurt somehow.
I know i will cut myself somehow.

And i know, this is just another crap of me talking to myself...

2010年6月10日星期四

亲爱的，你怎么不在我身边江美琪

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这里的空气很新鲜
这里的小吃很特别
这里的lette不像水
这里的夜景很有感觉
在一万英尺的天边
在有港口view的房间
在讨价还价的商店
在凌晨喧闹的三四点
可是亲爱的你怎么不在我身边
我们有多少时间能浪费
电话再甜美
传真再安慰
也不足以应付不能拥抱你的遥远
我的亲爱的你怎么不在我身边
一个人过一天像过一年
海的那一边
乌云一整片
我很想为了你快乐一点
可是亲爱的
你怎么不在身边
在一万英尺的天边
在有港口view的房间
在讨价还价的商店
在凌晨喧闹的三四点
可是亲爱的你怎么不在我身边
我们有多少时间能浪费
电话再甜美
传真再安慰
也不足以应付不能拥抱你的遥远
我的亲爱的你怎么不在我身边
一个人过一天像过一年
海的那一边
乌云一整片
我很想为了你快乐一点
可是亲爱的
你怎么不在身边
*
考了在学院的第一张。
该怎么说?
应该好不赖吧~
只是说现在有点担心自己到底有没有老师要的东西。
希望分数出来不会很难看吧。。。

今天也把Computer Graphic的assignment给交了。
剩下还有Advertising Principle的。
还有还有Communication English的作文。
Presentation Skills的在班前面朗诵还没轮到我。

大致上就是剩下这些而已。
学校的课外活动也要开始了。
最近可能会频频陆续参加会议。
厚~要加油了~
感觉上好像很久没有忙了。
要重新整理心情，慢慢应付了。

加油！！！
*
房间在装修着地板。
每天回到家都灰尘。
脚板都不是很好受。
不过最可怜还是Teddy。
它的家已经被那些洋灰弄得肮肮脏脏。
现在它每天都无精打采。
真的很可怜哦~

刚刚上楼看了房间的进展。
嗯~
暂时还不能说什么啦~
最多弄好了，收拾好了，就post张照片在这里。

现在就只是等油漆而已。
跟老妈讲好了。
什么颜色都可以，就是不要粉红色。
可是紫色的机会很大。
哈哈~
算了，不要粉红色就可以了。
*
过了今天，他就开始放假了。
而且还会放三个月的假。
超爽的叻~

不过他会去打工了。
没记错的话，是会从傍晚到凌晨。
很明显，没什么机会能聊天了。

是好吗？
只能说到时我要专心我自己的事。
是坏吗？
也只能说到时我不会在胡思乱想。。。

哎哟~
就他专心打工就可以了。
可以存钱回来。
^^

亲爱的，加油哦~~~

2010年6月8日星期二

Hope hope hope...

Argh~~~
Our very first test falls on this Thursday.

Erm~
Have start revision on the topic.
But cant really feel the notes are in my mind.
What to do?
And i even joked on how long i havent start picking up books and memorizing notes.

Hope i can pass this test successfully.
>.<
*
Oh my~ this intake's student were really having fun.
Their orientation day lasts for two days.
And they had lunch at Tappers and Nando's.
And they got games to play.

And us?
Our orientation only lasts for a few hours.
And then we just straight go back.
I still remember i went back to work.

But, oh well, welcome to IACT anyway.
Hope you guys will really enjoy your life here just like i'm doing now.
^^
*
Damn, i miss him so much.
I know it's been 4 months since his departure.
But i still cant get him out of my head.

He's like the pillar to my life and spirits.
I can always lean on him whenever i feels like to.
Man~
Can i not get this feeling over?
I really enjoy to be haunted by this feeling...

And i just miss him again...

2010年6月6日星期日

我回来了

我回来了！

昨天和一班朋友去了金宝，安顺，适耕莊，瓜雪。
和Stef,嫣，芊，阳阳，Nia Jian, Kim Kim。
真的很想念他们。
很久没有这样跟他们癫在一起了。
很想鬼死他们了。
><

拍了蛮多照片的。
不过大多数都在Kim Kim的相机里面。
*Kim Kim，可以的话，send一两张照片来。*

真的很久没有跟他们在一起了。
应该从毕业以后，我们就很少机会聚在一起癫。
和他们在一起时，我可以不用思考地，让自己放纵自己去癫。
内心也可以很放心地深呼吸。
他们简直就是我的另一个家人了。
真的很感恩缘分让我们相识在一起。
然后也让我们常常疯疯癫癫的。
那些回忆会永远在我心里。。。
*
明天开始，房间就要开始改变了！

开始会先装修地板。
再来粉刷墙壁。

地板的砖块已经选好了。
剩下是要粉刷墙壁的颜色。
妹妹姚粉红加紫色。
而我什么颜色都可以，就是不要粉红。
刚刚才斗嘴来而已。

不过最后作决定的应该是老妈吧~
谁叫她是老妈。
哈哈~
*
厚~
心里真的很挂念着他。
尤其这趟旅程更让我很想转时间，然后就可以一起享受了。

他要开始放假了。
而我还是得要忙学业。
希望到时我们还是有时间可以聊天。

我很想念你。。。

2010年6月3日星期四

Itchy!!!

Yesterday presentation was quite ok.
At least we went through as a team.

Although we were talking way too much, the judges were impressed by our research.
Although during the preparation we faced many obstacles, at last we still manage to put on a good show.

And through this presentation, i became more closer to my classmate.
It's truly a wonderful experience.

I just hope in the future, maybe we can really work as a team.
Till now, i know i can just smile with all these memories.
*
My skin had recover quite fast.

Now it's black in colour.
And it start itchy now.
You know what, i'm a snakewoman now.
Haha~
Cause my skin is peeling now.

It's a bit scary.
At first i cant wear any t-shirt but singlet.
Now i gotta t-shirt to cover up the black skin.

And i'm itchy now!!!
*
Man~
I really do miss him.
He's in my mind every 24/7
But i dont get tired or disturbing of it.

He's just happens to be in my mind.
And i just cant get him out of my head.

I miss him...

2010年6月1日星期二

六月了

六月了！
六月代表很多功课和ｐｒｅｓｅｎｔａｔｉｏｎ要完成。
而且Ｃｒｅａｔｉｖｅ　Ｔｈｉｎｋｉｎｇ要考试了。
都还没开始温习。。。

希望一起都能顺利完成。
＞＜
＊
明天的ｍａｓｓ　ｃｏｍｍ　ｐｒｅｓｅｎｔａｔｉｏｎ一定要顺利。
我们每次都是最后一分钟才会很多鬼马的主意出来。
出来了后又要找办法怎样呈现。
不过我们都还是算是完成了３／４。
剩下的要等明天才能完成。

哎哟～
各位ｄｍｃ２０１００４，加油咯～～～
我们就拼了！
让其他人都感到称叹！

加油哦～～～～
＊
今天跟他聊到天了。
哈哈～
（希望等下不会开心到失眠。哈哈～）

嗯～
他都很不错啦～
剪了头发。
开始喜欢玩ｂｅｊｅｗｅｌｅｄ。
哈哈～
他也在忙报告和考试。

过了这几天，他就放假了。
不过在找着工作。
到时候可能都会比现在更忙。
也好了。
现在都给自己一个教训了：不要想那些有的没的；也不要常常很容易就动摇。
呵呵～

亲爱的，很想念你哦～