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2011年10月20日星期四

future

Was supposed to update about my sis's birthday celebration.
But my mind was filled with loads of thoughts, and they are blocking my way.

This time, it wasnt the pressure.
Ok, ya, so maybe it was. But its not about college or whatsoever. Its my future instead.

For quite some time, i thought i had made my mind and i've decided to follow it.
No matter what obstacles are coming through, no matter how hard and how long will it takes, i'd still follow my decision.
But, this few days, after some conversation (or rather it was my parents talking, i'm quiet and listening), they want me to go overseas as soon as possible.

One of the reason, they are afraid that once i enter the working society, i'd lose the interest of going back to study.

I dont know how and when it will happen, but i always thought i will overcome this issue.

Until just now, i questioned myself.

Really? Can you overcome then? What if you cant? You know you are not allowed to regret, right?

One after another one, they popped out just like they way you are solving a crime.

Honestly, i cannot make a affirmative answer now. 

And i cant forecast my future. I wish i had a power of it now.

I mean, even now, the internship issue is making me losing my confidence.To what i cant be sure, but my heart sure race whenever the word "internship" is heard or said. 

Its too complicated to explain, but thats just the way i'm feeling now.

Well, i guess you can let time and fate to unfold the future.

You cant turn the next page, until the day you are ready for the next chapter.

I just need to cool myself down.

Listen to music. Enjoy a couple of movie. Pampered myself with delicious foods and beverages. Feel satisfied after a round of shopping. And, immerse myself with the loved ones.

Maybe after all these, a whole new chapter is ready to be written down.

Let it be adventure or romance, i do need some confidence to write the story out.


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