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Class cancelled today.
Being informed in a very very last minute situation.
How come?
I was almost reaching college, just right outside the traffic light.
Then a phone call announced class cancelled.

So, i scolded bad words and plan head to work early.
Yes, i did.
And thats actually a nice thing.
Because i got to earn extra income.
Ngehehehe~

At work, nothing unusual...
Oh wait, there's a lot of news.
But its all not convenience to talk right here.
All i could say is, things will going to be very busy for the next following months.

I'll balance my time for work and studies.
Let's just hope that my health and luck will accompany me through all these hard times.
=)
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Told him what happened and i know he's upset about it.
I somehow can feel that he's scolding a lot of bad words there.

Gosh~
How can i be so careless?
It might be i was too rush or impatient.
And it's all my fault.
Haiz~
There goes another mistake i've made.

And then today, there's a sudden rush of insecurity rush in my mind.
I mean i had so many thoughts and image in my mind.
I was really panicked and i almost burst to tears.
I was like rehearsing the whole agenda, even though i know it's only my stupid mind again.
But i really dont like this feelings.

Geez~
I sometimes really do hate this distance.
At least not this far.
Where i cant find him whenever i need him.
Where when i reach my hands, he's not there to grab it.
Where i couldnt share everything first handed to him.

Everyone thought we are used to it.
But have i tell you, i am still adjusting myself?

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