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2011年5月21日星期六
FML!!!
I really dont understand!
I though this silence had brought you to another lever of thinking. But it seems that i was just too naive. What could possibly happened now? Do you know that you are pointing a gun on my head now?! Do you how much i have to suffer now?! Why dont you just pull the trigger instead?! Let me die, so that we dont have to gone through this! Its just only a trip. Why cant you comprise a bit?! You said you dont want me comprise anymore, because it makes you feel pain. You dont want that ego to control you anymore. You want to take control of it. And now what?! You are letting that ego grow! Do you know how badly wounded i am now?! Do you know how many pieces i have torn now?! Those words that you used, those tones you used, you are just destroying this relationship! Yes, i goddamn hate this distance. We cant solve this issue immediately, and now we have it rot like hell! We make this issue become a catastrophe. Your way of solving problem had made everyone disappointed. Your way of portraying this issue had made me feel like ending my life. How did this happened? Do you ever know that ever since we get back together, i was defending all those negative thinking and comments by my loved one? They never really blessed us! They never feel optimistic for our relationship. They just faking a smile and hope, so that i wont get hurt. But now, everyone is grabbing this chance now! I want to scold foul language, but since the person is you, i kept all those words in my heart. Because i know how much you hate it, even by just spelling it out. Now you tell me, you teach me, am i that guilty enough to take this as a punishment? Dear, we've known each other for 5 years! 5 years! That's not 5 months or 5 days, its 5 years! By now, you should understand how this relationship would works. Not like this! I'm teared up! I'm tired! I feel like giving up now... You tell me, is this the way you want? |