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It's only April...

Sunday.
Couldnt really much describe what's my mood now.
I mean there's so many mixture of it.
Just like drinking a glass of cocktail.
Different kind of taste appears on your tongue when you took a sip.

I dont know whether i should feel heartache or happy or sad or tears or fake my smile or fake my hope or...
Argh~
I really dont know.

It's only the fourth month of 2011 and there's too many things happened.
I cant list out the details but it making me wonder how should i live on with all this?
Especially my relationship.
We've been going through a lot of fights and conflicts since the beginning of year.
I'm not doubting us but i just tired of this.

I really dont want to go through what WongFu had said in his video.
I do understand that we are going through stages right now.
It just sometimes i'm tired of it.
I need some fresh air to breath.
Not the aroma of my tears.


Yes, there are many obstacles in front of us now.
And the biggest factor is about our surroundings.
I guess he's right.
We need to calm down and give some time and space to think about it.

But i need to speak out now, i wont let go no matter what happened.
Unless it's reasonable and convincing, or else i wont let go.
I've lost him once and i dont want to do it the second time.
Maybe it was me that need all these meditation.
But the last thing i wanna say, i dont need WongFu to guide me which stages we are now and predict what is our next move.
No offense but somehow it makes my stupid mind wander to negative thinking and making me feel insecure.
Still, thanks to WongFu for teaching me a lesson.

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