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2010年11月12日星期五
Tears + Stress
Oh dear, i didnt know that stress had giving me a hard time.
Tears fall that day. And i didnt realized until i feel something wet on my cheek. And until i heard my voice sobbing over the phone. I dont know it was my fault or not. Tears had not been my favorite thing. And it always the last thing i want to do with. For me, tears had always represent weak, useless, nothing... It just make me feel so small and unbelievable useless. People always said, tears is woman's weapon. Use it wisely to take control of one thing. But i just couldnt help but feel a little powerless. Stress and tears. Definitely not a combination i loved the most. And the very least thing i want to do. I know i'm a newbies and i know things is a bit rush. But the words that had been used and the attitude that had been shown, just makes me feel stress and wanna curse. I always had to jungle my time around this and that. And i'm not happy with it. Please... Just let me sleep soundly for just one night... * It always feel great to have a bunch of crazy friends. Especially when you're down and things arent going smoothly. You know just where they are and how surprise you'll be. I didnt mean to post my tears, but it just happened. Then the next thing i know, they start hugging you with their words. You can feel their warmth through monitor. You can accept their love with some kind of connection. They just know what you want and what you're missing with.
They might not able to provide, but they tried. And you know it's enough and satisfying. Just the way they always did. I really do miss them. Every single one of them. Even when things arent going smoothly and you dont wish to tell the world, you will still miss them. How can i not be blessed? Crazy people will always ended up with a bunch of crazy friends. I just love every single one of them. <3 * Thanks to him too. Was having hard and i made him worried. Though he really tried to make me feel better, and yes i did. You just cant imagine what he did or what he said. It might sound funny or ridiculous to outsider. But it just to making me happy and i love it. Like i said, he always pick the right time to cure me, comfort me. Heart felt warm and blessed. As if he was an angel that brought to my life. Dear, just wanna say thank you and sorry for making you worried. But i'm ok now. I miss you... |