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I need a time out... =(

If i really fail in Malaysian Studies for this sem, please dont blame me.
I really am disappointed with the lecturer.

He's not really teaching.
Or i prefer, we are not giving damn to him.

Yesterday class, i didnt even listen at all.
I was having fun with the groups and we were kinda like fooling around.
No one actually was serious.
Everyone was fooling around.

Then he will suddenly disappeared for a moment.
When he came back, he told us that the class is dismissed.
It was only 5.30pm and i doubt that the chapter wasnt even finish yet.
But never mind, we are learning back what we've been learning for the past years.
It just need to be translate to english.
That's all.

So, if i ever say, "Fxxx me whenever i'm Malaysian Studies class", i was serious.
*
This few days, daddy and mummy keep asking me, what's bothering me?
Why am i not smiling?
I always told them, it's nothing to be worried about.
And i'm not depressing.

The fact is, i just dont feel like smiling nor express it out.
Somewhere inside my chest was tired.
Tired of being that hyper mood.
It's like, when i'm smiling, there's an echo from chest, telling me that she's tired.
Then i will start sulking and poker face.

I know i'm having depression or whatsoever.
I just feeling tired.

Tired of being a strong girl, period.
Tired of smiling for no reason, period.
Tired of in hyper mood in an empty space, period.
Tired of talking to people, period.
Tired of giving out my expression, period.


I just want to be quiet for a moment...*
Dear, i miss you...

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