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2010年9月14日星期二
Wet...
It's been raining two days.
And it only rains in the morning. Haiz~ Dont actually like the feeling of raining on the morning. It always makes me feel wet. Haha~ Sounds wrong. But ya, i'm always awake by the rain drop sounds. Then i gotta get up and start preparing for the day. But the thing is, it doesnt drizzling or just rain. It rain like there's no tomorrow. There'll be wind and lightning. Making the day cold. And i always hate cold. For today, i was supposed to drive to work. And the rain makes everything worse. There's flood and everyone is driving slow. Gotta carry an umbrella with many things on hand. Then need to prepare extra shoes. Or just bother wearing a pair of scandal and change when you arrive. Aiks~ Even my house is in a little worse case. Water are dripping in my house. Outsider would even thought we were too poor to fixed the roof. Haiz~ I just dont really like raining in the morning... * Life had been going a bit rough now. I mean communicating with someone, really makes me feel like cursing every time. But well, i dont want to be rude or wasting my energy to scold that someone. I just hope she/he will done well when i'm gone. Oh~ and when someone gone too. Guess the company will be in a little chaotic situation. Especially everyone dont bother to speak up. Work had been great if only she dont do anything dumb. Missed a day and i've start counting if i'm able to earn it back. FML. ^.^ Still, class starting next week. Havent even really read through Sociology textbook. Oh my~ >.< * Alright, but there's something i really need to speak out. Why cant i trust my man that i've chosen? Why should i be afraid of that distance? Why should i break up when we are in the distance? Why cant we just trust each other and give hope to each other? I feel annoying whenever someone ask me lots of question. Regarding he's at Taiwan and i'm here. I mean, i know who should i trust and who should i invest my time to. Why should we need to break up when distance and time are giving us challenge? Sometimes i feel like shouting at them but i cant. I just simply cant. It's like there's something in my heart wants them to look at the future. Stop assuming and make conclusion to my life. I admit, when the first time he told he's leaving, i've been struggling. Till the day he left. I've struggled, whether to make him stay or not. But it was a deep conversation with my parents and some time to think thoroughly, i let him go. It was that day that i understand i shouldnt be afraid. I understand that his future are more important than me. I understand that if he stays, he will feel bad and i'll be guilty for my entire life. I understand that some times, it was the distance and time that will tie a strong bond. I understand that if i trust him more, we will outcome every challenge we will go through. I know clearly what i'm doing. We will prove that we will, somehow, still be together, in the future... |