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Just me and my life.



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2009年4月3日星期五
I need help but no...

Listening to Boney M's "Rasputin"
I hate boring life.
Boring life will always bring my mind till wild.
I couldnt tell how.
But my mood will always changed.

I mean, i cant even control myself.
Sometimes, it's a sunshine day.
Sometimes, it's a rainy day.
Worse, sometimes, it's a thunder + storm + crazy wind blowing day.
I felt so bad about it.
It's like something is stuck inside my chest.
I couldnt pull it out.

I really dont like this feeling.
I treated my family very bad.
I shout to them.
I pull out my sour face.
I feel so not-talking-to-you-so-shut-up attitude.
At school, i try to put my most fake smile.
I try to talk much and be the cheerful sunshine.
But whenever i reach my home, i felt so tired and annoyed.

So, i let myself wander into the music world.
Get drunk by reading books.
Playing games like i've been living for my life.
Watching tv without emotion.
Sleep as early as i want.
Eat like this is the only food.

I dont know how to shake off this feeling.
It might be the spm stress.
It might be i'm tired enough to think of my future.
It might be the boring life.
It might be the competition i gave myself.
It might be the things that happened to me.

I really dont want to think about it.
I felt so helpless yet i dont want people to save me.
I'm tired.
I had it enough.

But no!!!
No!!!
I'm not going to give my life up that easily.
I wont let anyone that loved me more than i do get upset.
I never want them to shed a tears for me.
No!!!
Guess it's only matter of time.
I will get myself back.
I wont promise it will be the original as i am before.
I just wish i can shake off this feeling.
Please~~~...