I Will Always Love You 私は常に愛する

2011年12月29日星期四

Back from Taiwan =)

I'm back! Back from Taiwan.
A 9-day trip was fun and thrilling.
There were so many wonderful memories that cannot recreate again.
It was so unique special that one cannot exchange with it.

For this post, i wont be talking much about it, as pictures had uploaded on Facebook.
Maybe i will just try to elaborate some. But for this post, i will mainly focus on story.

18/12/2011, 9am
I was in the flight, on my way to Taiwan.
For some strange reason, Rihanna's "Unfaithful" keep playing in my head like a broken jukebox.
I could not remember the whole song, but only the chorus part.

I don’t wanna do this anymore
I don’t wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don’t wanna hurt him anymore
I don’t wanna take away his life
I don’t wanna be...
a murderer
our love

It was so strange, but i just left it playing in my head for the next 3 hours.

22/12/2011
We were on our way back to Taipei.

On the way back, my mind start to flash back.

A lot of images and memories flashing back.

I wasnt shock nor sad. Instead, i just let it play and i even dream of it.
I keep telling myself, what past had been past, just appreciate the happiness you had once.
No matter it works or not, i was calm and steady, as if i wont cry or mad if we really bumped into each other.

24/12/2011
I left a message to him. Replied to his invitation. Unfortunately (according to him), he was unavailable.
To be honest, i was a bit mad. I mean, before i left for Taiwan, he keep asking for a date, and now, he's unavailable.
But to think back, maybe i was over ready for it. Maybe i thought i could keep myself in position. But then again, i failed.
Luckily, Buddha gave me a pleasant present at XiMenTing.
There were a bunch of youngsters, holing up a posters, "Free Hug".
Without hesitating, i spread my arms and hug them.

It was quite meaningful and fun.

I never done that in my life, and i couldnt help myself by smiling all the way back.

Many thanks to them for such a pleasant present and memories.

25/12/2011
It was Christmas.
The streets were full with couples.
Another scenario that make me couldnt help think, ~~what if that night we try again and be together again.~~
But i did not let that question linger in my mind.
I focus on my trip and it worth more than anything.

26/12/2011
On the way back to Malaysia, i was assign to sit alone, near window.
When the plane took off, i could see the night view of Taiwan.
It was breathtaking. I could not help but to store them in my mind.
It actually makes me cool down.
Though i couldnt sleep, my mind was clear, and this time, my head is playing LMFAO's "Party Rock Anthem"
It's weird, yet i let it play for the next 3 hours flight.

Right now, i'm typing this post in my house.
Relaxing, with my favorite song list.

I still like to thanks to many people.

Thank you for helping us whenever we need it.

Thank you for making our trip wonderful.

Thank you for creating such a special memories.

Thank you for every single of you.

Lastly, as a ending for this post, i would post my Christmas eve present.
Haha~
Thought his not handsome, but quite good looking. =)

2011年12月14日星期三

In Heavn JYJ

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그만 갈게 가지마 곧 돌아올 거야 그러니까
거짓말, 거짓말 아니야 내가 널 이만큼 사랑하는데
그 사랑 지금 보여줄 순 없겠니?
사랑해 또 다시 사랑할 순 없겠니

지금 와선 말할 수가 없어
너의 기적 그 모든 게 환상 같아
마지막 니 모습 속 서서히
기억 속에만 잠겨져 가는 것만 같아
어딘가에서 날 보고 있을까
후회해도 늦어버려 볼 수 없어
추억의 그림자의 촉촉한 내 눈물들로
그 자릴 지켜보고 있어

그 말 못해 정말 못해 니가 내 옆에 있을 때만큼
미안한데 그게 안돼 이젠 모든 게 떨려와
조금 더 기다리다 꿈 속을 헤메이다
결국 니 안에서 눈을 감을까 봐

가지마 더 가지마 내 곁에 있어줄 수는 없니
거짓말 다 거짓말 전혀 들리지가 않아
사랑해 널 사랑해 한마디 보여줄 수는 없니
사랑해 널 사랑해 또 다시 사랑해 주겠니

벌써 이렇게도 지나 왔어
너의 흔적 찾아봐도 지워졌어
마지막 니 기억도 눈물의 테옆 속으로
轉載來自 ※Mojim.com　魔鏡歌詞網
잠겨져 가는 것만 같아

이만 끝내 나를 끝내 니가 내 옆에 있지 않다면
미안한데 이만 갈게 이제 너의 길을 따라
끝 없는 길을 따라 널 찾아 헤메이다
결국 너를 잃고서 슬퍼만 할까 봐

가지마 더 가지마 내 곁에 있어 줄 수는 없니
거짓말 다 거짓말 전혀 들리지가 않아
사랑해 널 사랑해 한마디 보여줄 수는 없니
사랑해 널 사랑해 또다시 사랑해 주겠니

가지마 가지마 있어줄 수는 있니
거짓말 거짓말 들리지가 않아
사랑해 사랑해 보여줄 수는 있니
사랑해 사랑해 사랑해 주겠니
가지마 가지마 있어줄 수는 있니
거짓말 거짓말 들리지가 않아
사랑해 사랑해 보여줄 수는 있니
제발 돌아와줘

가지마 더 가지마 내 곁에 있어줄 수는 없니
거짓말 다 거짓말 전혀 들리지가 않아
사랑해 널 사랑해 한마디 보여줄 수는 없니
사랑해 널 사랑해 또 다시 사랑해 주겠니
*

终于都考完了！

第五学期都圆满落成！

不，等等，还有一样功课要完成，而我们现在就是正在完成着。

我也不要再抱怨了。
已经抱怨整整几个星期了。
从电脑软件开始至现在，无时无刻都在抱怨着。
所以，为了一刻的平静，我就不在这里抱怨啦~

还是开心点。毕竟考完了。有差不多三个星期的时间来好好享受。
三个星期后，就要开始人生另一个短暂的路程 - 实习。
换句话说，整整三个月的时间都不能和这班疯癫的朋友在一起了。
所以，与他们的约会，一定要出席。
心里一定会超级想念他们了。
还是不要现在说这些，不然泪水流下来，不能睡觉了。。。

结论这篇，就是没有结论。

只是纯粹想要换歌（我的最爱-JYJ！！！），和分散一下注意力。

2011年12月8日星期四

One down!

One paper down!

One more paper and one MM assignment to go!

Cant believe i'm ending my Sem5 now.
Ok, i'm not going to say the same thing as i did for the last 4 semesters.
Guess some of you already know what i'm going say.
Haha~

Anyway, the paper was quite easy, in a way.
I mean if u really do study hard Ms Su's notes and pay attention in class, it shouldnt be a problem at all.
There goes Publicity and Media Relations.
It was fun to learn more about publicity.
It was a big difference between publicity and public relation, and to be truth, it kinda helps me more to see my future.

Ok, it still kinda blur, but i guess i know what i want and what i dont want, I GUESS.

Anyway, one paper down!
Gotta survive till 16th.

17th - a date with my dear Crystal and Nikki

18th - Taiwan, here i come!

25th - Still at Taiwan, celebrating Christmas there!

27th - Baby home, i'm back!

29th - A visitor is coming my house. *superexcitedthaticandoacartwheelspinrightnow*

31th - House party!

See?
That's how my schedule had been set, for December alone.
Then i'll start my intern on 9th of January. Another dream, another journey, another experience, another way of living.

For now, let's focus on my next paper - Media Ethics and Regulations.
Peace out.
xoxo

2011年12月3日星期六

十二月了

十二月的开头还真不顺利。
考试和那死人电脑功课都撞在一起。
搞到我不知道该把重心放在哪里。
每天就是都不知道该做什么好。
最后搞到浪费了一天的时间。什么的都没做到，什么都没完成。
真的很失败，也很无奈。

十二月啊~

两年前的我，现在应该是什么都不用管。

尽情地享受我的一个月半的假期生活。

要去生活营也好，与家人去旅行也好，与朋友出门都好，什么都不用烦，什么都不想理。

如今，离开中学生涯也已经两年了。
说长不长，说短不短。
有时会突然因为一些事情，或是翻阅旧时照片，还真感叹我们都在成长啊~

说这么多，都只是要转移我的注意力。
不要再因为那死人电脑软件而搞砸本来应该美好的星期六。

最后，还是那句老话：十二月啊，你要对我好点。我已经快要被这电脑功课搞到要疯了。我答应，如果你对我好点，我就不会因为小小事情而发脾气了。也答应你，这个月的花费少点，不要再因为一时的冲动而花钱了。好吧？


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Maybe i will just try to elaborate some. But for this post, i will mainly focus on story. 18/12/2011, 9am I was in the flight, on my way to Taiwan. For some strange reason, Rihanna's "Unfaithful" keep playing in my head like a broken jukebox. I could not remember the whole song, but only the chorus part. I don’t wanna do this anymore I don’t wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don’t wanna hurt him anymore I don’t wanna take away his life I don’t wanna be... a murderer our love It was so strange, but i just left it playing in my head for the next 3 hours. 22/12/2011 We were on our way back to Taipei. On the way back, my mind start to flash back. A lot of images and memories flashing back. I wasnt shock nor sad. Instead, i just let it play and i even dream of it. I keep telling myself, what past had been past, just appreciate the happiness you had once. No matter it works or not, i was calm and steady, as if i wont cry or mad if we really bumped into each other. 24/12/2011 I left a message to him. Replied to his invitation. Unfortunately (according to him), he was unavailable. To be honest, i was a bit mad. I mean, before i left for Taiwan, he keep asking for a date, and now, he's unavailable. But to think back, maybe i was over ready for it. Maybe i thought i could keep myself in position. But then again, i failed. Luckily, Buddha gave me a pleasant present at XiMenTing. There were a bunch of youngsters, holing up a posters, "Free Hug". Without hesitating, i spread my arms and hug them. It was quite meaningful and fun. I never done that in my life, and i couldnt help myself by smiling all the way back. Many thanks to them for such a pleasant present and memories. 25/12/2011 It was Christmas. The streets were full with couples. Another scenario that make me couldnt help think, ~~what if that night we try again and be together again.~~ But i did not let that question linger in my mind. I focus on my trip and it worth more than anything. 26/12/2011 On the way back to Malaysia, i was assign to sit alone, near window. When the plane took off, i could see the night view of Taiwan. It was breathtaking. I could not help but to store them in my mind. It actually makes me cool down. Though i couldnt sleep, my mind was clear, and this time, my head is playing LMFAO's "Party Rock Anthem" It's weird, yet i let it play for the next 3 hours flight. Right now, i'm typing this post in my house. Relaxing, with my favorite song list. I still like to thanks to many people. Thank you for helping us whenever we need it. Thank you for making our trip wonderful. Thank you for creating such a special memories. Thank you for every single of you. Lastly, as a ending for this post, i would post my Christmas eve present. Haha~ Thought his not handsome, but quite good looking. =) 12:30 · 2011年12月14日星期三 In Heavn JYJ This Flash Player was created @ FlashWidgetz.com. myspace music add music to your myspace facebook playlist 그만 갈게 가지마 곧 돌아올 거야 그러니까 거짓말, 거짓말 아니야 내가 널 이만큼 사랑하는데 그 사랑 지금 보여줄 순 없겠니? 사랑해 또 다시 사랑할 순 없겠니 지금 와선 말할 수가 없어 너의 기적 그 모든 게 환상 같아 마지막 니 모습 속 서서히 기억 속에만 잠겨져 가는 것만 같아 어딘가에서 날 보고 있을까 후회해도 늦어버려 볼 수 없어 추억의 그림자의 촉촉한 내 눈물들로 그 자릴 지켜보고 있어 그 말 못해 정말 못해 니가 내 옆에 있을 때만큼 미안한데 그게 안돼 이젠 모든 게 떨려와 조금 더 기다리다 꿈 속을 헤메이다 결국 니 안에서 눈을 감을까 봐 가지마 더 가지마 내 곁에 있어줄 수는 없니 거짓말 다 거짓말 전혀 들리지가 않아 사랑해 널 사랑해 한마디 보여줄 수는 없니 사랑해 널 사랑해 또 다시 사랑해 주겠니 벌써 이렇게도 지나 왔어 너의 흔적 찾아봐도 지워졌어 마지막 니 기억도 눈물의 테옆 속으로 轉載來自 ※Mojim.com　魔鏡歌詞網 잠겨져 가는 것만 같아 이만 끝내 나를 끝내 니가 내 옆에 있지 않다면 미안한데 이만 갈게 이제 너의 길을 따라 끝 없는 길을 따라 널 찾아 헤메이다 결국 너를 잃고서 슬퍼만 할까 봐 가지마 더 가지마 내 곁에 있어 줄 수는 없니 거짓말 다 거짓말 전혀 들리지가 않아 사랑해 널 사랑해 한마디 보여줄 수는 없니 사랑해 널 사랑해 또다시 사랑해 주겠니 가지마 가지마 있어줄 수는 있니 거짓말 거짓말 들리지가 않아 사랑해 사랑해 보여줄 수는 있니 사랑해 사랑해 사랑해 주겠니 가지마 가지마 있어줄 수는 있니 거짓말 거짓말 들리지가 않아 사랑해 사랑해 보여줄 수는 있니 제발 돌아와줘 가지마 더 가지마 내 곁에 있어줄 수는 없니 거짓말 다 거짓말 전혀 들리지가 않아 사랑해 널 사랑해 한마디 보여줄 수는 없니 사랑해 널 사랑해 또 다시 사랑해 주겠니 * 终于都考完了！第五学期都圆满落成！不，等等，还有一样功课要完成，而我们现在就是正在完成着。我也不要再抱怨了。已经抱怨整整几个星期了。从电脑软件开始至现在，无时无刻都在抱怨着。所以，为了一刻的平静，我就不在这里抱怨啦~ 还是开心点。毕竟考完了。有差不多三个星期的时间来好好享受。三个星期后，就要开始人生另一个短暂的路程 - 实习。换句话说，整整三个月的时间都不能和这班疯癫的朋友在一起了。所以，与他们的约会，一定要出席。心里一定会超级想念他们了。还是不要现在说这些，不然泪水流下来，不能睡觉了。。。结论这篇，就是没有结论。只是纯粹想要换歌（我的最爱-JYJ！！！），和分散一下注意力。 =) 01:42 · 2011年12月8日星期四 One down! One paper down! One more paper and one MM assignment to go! Cant believe i'm ending my Sem5 now. Ok, i'm not going to say the same thing as i did for the last 4 semesters. Guess some of you already know what i'm going say. Haha~ Anyway, the paper was quite easy, in a way. I mean if u really do study hard Ms Su's notes and pay attention in class, it shouldnt be a problem at all. There goes Publicity and Media Relations. It was fun to learn more about publicity. It was a big difference between publicity and public relation, and to be truth, it kinda helps me more to see my future. Ok, it still kinda blur, but i guess i know what i want and what i dont want, I GUESS. Anyway, one paper down! Gotta survive till 16th. 17th - a date with my dear Crystal and Nikki 18th - Taiwan, here i come! 25th - Still at Taiwan, celebrating Christmas there! 27th - Baby home, i'm back! 29th - A visitor is coming my house. superexcitedthaticandoacartwheelspinrightnow 31th - House party! See? That's how my schedule had been set, for December alone. Then i'll start my intern on 9th of January. Another dream, another journey, another experience, another way of living. For now, let's focus on my next paper - Media Ethics and Regulations. Peace out. xoxo 21:45 · 2011年12月3日星期六十二月了十二月的开头还真不顺利。考试和那死人电脑功课都撞在一起。搞到我不知道该把重心放在哪里。每天就是都不知道该做什么好。最后搞到浪费了一天的时间。什么的都没做到，什么都没完成。真的很失败，也很无奈。十二月啊~ 两年前的我，现在应该是什么都不用管。尽情地享受我的一个月半的假期生活。要去生活营也好，与家人去旅行也好，与朋友出门都好，什么都不用烦，什么都不想理。如今，离开中学生涯也已经两年了。说长不长，说短不短。有时会突然因为一些事情，或是翻阅旧时照片，还真感叹我们都在成长啊~ 说这么多，都只是要转移我的注意力。不要再因为那死人电脑软件而搞砸本来应该美好的星期六。最后，还是那句老话：十二月啊，你要对我好点。我已经快要被这电脑功课搞到要疯了。我答应，如果你对我好点，我就不会因为小小事情而发脾气了。也答应你，这个月的花费少点，不要再因为一时的冲动而花钱了。好吧？ 10:40 ·