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2009年9月30日星期三

长大了?

听着郭美美的《爱是你眼里的一首歌》

该说是我长大了吗？
许多事情在一瞬间变得那么陌生，甚至有点丑。

内心隐藏了很多秘密。
可是我就在今天把它们给解放了。
顿时觉得好轻松。
轻松得我不敢到处乱飞。

不过，我真的应该长大了。
17岁的我，明年就要踏入18岁了。
人生的另一个阶段。
不长大都不行。

可能这是成长的其中一个考验。
我该学习如何去处理它。
从内心，到表面，我都应该上一次演戏班。
伪装成令一个我。
也许这是最好的办法。
也是目前想到的办法。

我没法在那么多人面前掉泪。
我一直以来都那么坚强。
在他的面前也是如此。
所以我不能为了这个秘密而落泪。
反而我应该把它当成我的冲刺力。

冲刺我赶快面对现实。
冲刺我必须立刻站稳脚跟。
冲刺我外面的天空也是如此。
冲刺我人心不能轻易，也不应去看破。

到底是我成长了？
还是我看多，听多了?
我都不知道。
也不想去追问。
*
好快哦～
明天就1号了。

也是说，距离spm还有那么1个月半而已。

该收拾心情还是温习了。
不能在懒懒散散了。

各位SPM考生们，我们一定要加油哦～
为了将来，为来前途，为了“钱”途，为了理想，为了自己，我们都该拼了！
加油！！！
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2009年9月26日星期六

R.I.P. Grandpa

Listening to The All American Reject's "Move Along"

22/9/2009, Tuesday, 2.15pm.
A day we wont forget.
My beloved darling grandpa had left us.
He left with a smile.
At least that's one thing that makes me relief.

He was suffering the night before.
He cant really breathe right.
As what we knew, we thought there's phlegm in his throat.
Causing him to blew bubbles and saliva.

We tried every doctor that we can.
But all of them either they are too many patient or it's too late for a on-door service.
We had no choice but to call the hospital to send an ambulance.
When the paramedics arrive, they diagnosed the same thing.
But needed to send to hospital for a confirmation check-up.
So, they send my grandpa to hospital.

And that was the last time i saw him. Alive.
I still remember before that, i told him get well soon.
I'll fetch him around to wherever he want.
I told him, i'll drive your favorite car, Perdana, around.
He even smiled to me and nodded his head.

But in the end, i had my biggest regret.
I didnt get the chance to fetch.
Nor did i get the chance to let him judge my driving skill.

It's very heart aching.
But the ceremony must go on.

*
I know among all, Daddy is the one who hurt the most.
Daddy had been keep telling stories about him and grandpa.

It was obvious that grandpa loves Daddy more than anyone else.
Since small, Daddy had followed grandpa to every where.
That's why Daddy earn a nickname"Bodyguard".
Daddy's driving skill was taught by grandpa.
Daddy's solving-math-problem was taught by grandpa.
Daddy's lots of stuff was taught by grandpa.

Too many memories Daddy had been kept for years.
I dont really know, if Daddy had any regret.
But i just wish Daddy that he will able to get out soon.
Grandpa will be relief to see Daddy happy again.
Ok, Daddy?
*
In the end, i would like to end my post with two pictures.
These two pictures was taken when my grandpa was young.
He was so handsome.
Grandma was the lucky to married him and had a family with him.
By now, grandpa will stay together with grandma at the other world.

Rest in peace, grandpa.
We will always love.
Thanks for everything.
You will always in our heart.

Our Beloved Grandpa
Lee Kuan Yew
1933 - 2009

2009年9月19日星期六

好累好累。。。

听着小虎队的《红蜻蜓》

唉～
现在虽然只剩华语试卷（二）还没考，可是整个人好像已经放松似的。
真是的。
*
今天在上又跳起来了。
以为今天是上学日。
早上六点就醒了。
后来察觉今天是星期六，不用上课，才慢慢又入睡。

真的很烦人叻～
差不多每天早上都要经历这个过程。
唉～
该说是习惯了，还是是压力在作祟。
我真的不知道。

倒是有点我非常清楚。
我整个人好累。
累得没有起劲去完成某些事情。
累得我真的好想永远就躺在床上，听音乐过日子算了。
累得不想再听任何流言蜚语。

厚～
我真的不知道这个心情是何时开始的。
总之，我现在不能胡思乱想。
要专心考试。
要专心眼前的事务。

其他的，一律等我心情慢慢恢复再来谈。
*
冷漠了他一阵子。
不知他过得好不好。

应该还不错。
只希望他不要怪我最近的态度和心情。。。

2009年9月17日星期四

Happy Hari Raya

Listening to Jennifer Hudson's "Spotlight"

Hurray~
Trial is still not yet officially end!!!
All thanks to Hari Raya.
The government had generously let us free us starting from tomorrow till 28/9.

I know it's kinda stupid.
My holiday will be ruin for just one subject.
Chinese Paper 2!!!
Great~ just what i wanted to do in the last thing.

Haiz~
*
Anyhow, i'm kinda miss here.
For two weeks, i've been district myself from surfing net.

Ok, i admit it.
I DO online for a few times.
I just want to relax myself.
Please forgive me. ><

Haha~
All i knew is, i cant really sleep well, cant concentrate too much, often mistaken Saturday and Sunday as weekday...
Lots of personal crazy stuff happening.
Cant blame myself that i'm pressuring myself.

In the end, my sixth sense told me i will failed this time.
Haiz~
So much for the drama.
Guess i will be good girl now.
Start doing revision.
Start asking question.
Start prepare to battle now.

I hope i can survive...
*
Even so, HAPPY HARI RAYA to all of you out there!!!
^^

2009年9月5日星期六

亡命之徒纵贯线

听着林宥嘉的《那首歌》

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

听我说我原来有个梦
跟你高飞远走跟你一起走到白头
但是我拥有化为乌有
忘记我们承诺忘记曾经爱你爱的那么浓
我不能带你走我犯了大错
必须一个人走必须扛下所有罪过
必须离开熟悉的街口请你不要忘记我
这夜里有小雨飘在空中
当我扣板机的瞬间灵魂早已卖给魔鬼
可笑的是我好想求主帮我赎回
赎回我那一丁点的尊严
想起妈妈的脸对不起这几年
是否有机会再见你一面
妈妈我犯了错你会原谅我吗?
我已经踏上了末路
别人眼中的亡命之徒哪里还有我的藏身处?
我的兄弟离我远去我还傻呼呼的相信道义
所谓的人性莫非要用血和泪来换取教训
不想再混下去
想说干完这一票就不再撩下去
想着想着我的眼泪就流不停
出发啦不要问那路在哪?
迎风向前是唯一的方法
出发啦不想问那路在哪?
运命哎呀什么关卡?
当车声隆隆梦开始阵痛
它卷起了风重新雕塑每个面孔
夜雾那么浓开阔也汹涌
有一种预感路的终点是迷宫
喂小子我想我大概明白你的意思
那些发生在你身上的
曾经以不同的面貌也在我生命里出现过好几次
对此我并无更高明的解释
只是觉得今天说不定是个合适的日子
我们就各自用舒服的姿势
用擅长的方式给人生我们的
不管是一种告解还是一份答辩词
人再有本事也难抵抗命运的不仁慈
这道理再简单不过接不接受是另外一回事
真爱并非不来它只是被无预警的恶意的延迟
不要让某个女人做的蠢事
变成你自己与自己的争执
为什么该有的都有还是觉得不够
天呀该不会是贪心的念头
为什么拼了命地工作拼了命地追梦
到头来原地没有动过
为什么万里晴空下的面孔
庸庸碌碌不开心地锁着眉头要向谁哭诉
为什么想去看场电影
该死的台风偏偏选在每一个的周末
为什么这个世界上就是有人穷得发疯
有人富有把钞票当作了枕头
为什么新闻里鼻酸故事只为了
偷面包给妈妈充饥的小偷
为什么一百个为什么
变成一千个一万个十万个为什么
为什么我想破头写不出个鸟念念念
我为了什么
我们都不必在意未来的样子
像是精神病患写的诗或是烟花绽放的节日
随它去吧我们都只活一次
呼吸呼吸呼吸呼一切曳然而止
真理在荒谬被证实以前都只是暗室里的装饰
只有当眼前亮起来了以后
才有机会彰显它的价值不是谁能决定的
该漫游还是冲刺
我们都在海里我觉得我们像沙子
你说的亡命之徒是不是大概就是这个意思
出发啦不要问那路在哪(亡命之徒可会全力以赴)
迎风向前是唯一的方法(是不是穷途末路有没有藏身之处)
出发啦不想问那路在哪(亡命之徒逃亡要全力以赴)
运命哎啊什么关卡(喘息在穷途末路给我个藏身之处)
当车声隆隆梦开始阵痛(亡命之徒可会全力以赴)
它卷起了风重新雕塑每个面孔(是不是穷途末路有没有藏身之处)
夜雾那么浓开阔也汹涌(亡命之徒逃亡要全力以赴)
有一种预感路的终点是迷宫(喘息在穷途末路给我个藏身之处)
*
真的很对不起哦～
最近又没有更新了。
哎哟～
真的很该打。
不过我可是有理由的哦～
*
考试嘛～
而且还是预考哦～
当然要全神贯注了。

所以这段时间，一直到马来人新年为止，我都不是很能常常更新。
所以，就抱歉啦～
*
怎样都好，希望全部SPM考生们，要加油哦！
别让任何东西成为你的绊脚石。
要全力以赴！！！

加油！！！


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Hit counter code here	2009年9月30日星期三长大了? 听着郭美美的《爱是你眼里的一首歌》该说是我长大了吗？许多事情在一瞬间变得那么陌生，甚至有点丑。内心隐藏了很多秘密。可是我就在今天把它们给解放了。顿时觉得好轻松。轻松得我不敢到处乱飞。不过，我真的应该长大了。 17岁的我，明年就要踏入18岁了。人生的另一个阶段。不长大都不行。可能这是成长的其中一个考验。我该学习如何去处理它。从内心，到表面，我都应该上一次演戏班。伪装成令一个我。也许这是最好的办法。也是目前想到的办法。我没法在那么多人面前掉泪。我一直以来都那么坚强。在他的面前也是如此。所以我不能为了这个秘密而落泪。反而我应该把它当成我的冲刺力。冲刺我赶快面对现实。冲刺我必须立刻站稳脚跟。冲刺我外面的天空也是如此。冲刺我人心不能轻易，也不应去看破。到底是我成长了？还是我看多，听多了? 我都不知道。也不想去追问。 * 好快哦～明天就1号了。也是说，距离spm还有那么1个月半而已。该收拾心情还是温习了。不能在懒懒散散了。各位SPM考生们，我们一定要加油哦～为了将来，为来前途，为了“钱”途，为了理想，为了自己，我们都该拼了！加油！！！ >< 19:18 · 2009年9月26日星期六 R.I.P. Grandpa Listening to The All American Reject's "Move Along" 22/9/2009, Tuesday, 2.15pm. A day we wont forget. My beloved darling grandpa had left us. He left with a smile. At least that's one thing that makes me relief. He was suffering the night before. He cant really breathe right. As what we knew, we thought there's phlegm in his throat. Causing him to blew bubbles and saliva. We tried every doctor that we can. But all of them either they are too many patient or it's too late for a on-door service. We had no choice but to call the hospital to send an ambulance. When the paramedics arrive, they diagnosed the same thing. But needed to send to hospital for a confirmation check-up. So, they send my grandpa to hospital. And that was the last time i saw him. Alive. I still remember before that, i told him get well soon. I'll fetch him around to wherever he want. I told him, i'll drive your favorite car, Perdana, around. He even smiled to me and nodded his head. But in the end, i had my biggest regret. I didnt get the chance to fetch. Nor did i get the chance to let him judge my driving skill. It's very heart aching. But the ceremony must go on. * I know among all, Daddy is the one who hurt the most. Daddy had been keep telling stories about him and grandpa. It was obvious that grandpa loves Daddy more than anyone else. Since small, Daddy had followed grandpa to every where. That's why Daddy earn a nickname"Bodyguard". Daddy's driving skill was taught by grandpa. Daddy's solving-math-problem was taught by grandpa. Daddy's lots of stuff was taught by grandpa. Too many memories Daddy had been kept for years. I dont really know, if Daddy had any regret. But i just wish Daddy that he will able to get out soon. Grandpa will be relief to see Daddy happy again. Ok, Daddy? * In the end, i would like to end my post with two pictures. These two pictures was taken when my grandpa was young. He was so handsome. Grandma was the lucky to married him and had a family with him. By now, grandpa will stay together with grandma at the other world. Rest in peace, grandpa. We will always love. Thanks for everything. You will always in our heart. =)Our Beloved Grandpa Lee Kuan Yew 1933 - 2009 12:24 · 2009年9月19日星期六好累好累。。。听着小虎队的《红蜻蜓》唉～现在虽然只剩华语试卷（二）还没考，可是整个人好像已经放松似的。真是的。 * 今天在上又跳起来了。以为今天是上学日。早上六点就醒了。后来察觉今天是星期六，不用上课，才慢慢又入睡。真的很烦人叻～差不多每天早上都要经历这个过程。唉～该说是习惯了，还是是压力在作祟。我真的不知道。倒是有点我非常清楚。我整个人好累。累得没有起劲去完成某些事情。累得我真的好想永远就躺在床上，听音乐过日子算了。累得不想再听任何流言蜚语。厚～我真的不知道这个心情是何时开始的。总之，我现在不能胡思乱想。要专心考试。要专心眼前的事务。其他的，一律等我心情慢慢恢复再来谈。 * 冷漠了他一阵子。不知他过得好不好。应该还不错。只希望他不要怪我最近的态度和心情。。。 11:47 · 2009年9月17日星期四 Happy Hari Raya Listening to Jennifer Hudson's "Spotlight" Hurray~ Trial is still not yet officially end!!! All thanks to Hari Raya. The government had generously let us free us starting from tomorrow till 28/9. I know it's kinda stupid. My holiday will be ruin for just one subject. Chinese Paper 2!!! Great~ just what i wanted to do in the last thing. Haiz~ * Anyhow, i'm kinda miss here. For two weeks, i've been district myself from surfing net. Ok, i admit it. I DO online for a few times. I just want to relax myself. Please forgive me. >< Haha~ All i knew is, i cant really sleep well, cant concentrate too much, often mistaken Saturday and Sunday as weekday... Lots of personal crazy stuff happening. Cant blame myself that i'm pressuring myself. In the end, my sixth sense told me i will failed this time. Haiz~ So much for the drama. Guess i will be good girl now. Start doing revision. Start asking question. Start prepare to battle now. I hope i can survive... * Even so, HAPPY HARI RAYA to all of you out there!!! ^^ 16:09 · 2009年9月5日星期六亡命之徒纵贯线听着林宥嘉的《那首歌》 Music Playlist at MixPod.com 听我说我原来有个梦跟你高飞远走跟你一起走到白头但是我拥有化为乌有忘记我们承诺忘记曾经爱你爱的那么浓我不能带你走我犯了大错必须一个人走必须扛下所有罪过必须离开熟悉的街口请你不要忘记我这夜里有小雨飘在空中当我扣板机的瞬间灵魂早已卖给魔鬼可笑的是我好想求主帮我赎回赎回我那一丁点的尊严想起妈妈的脸对不起这几年是否有机会再见你一面妈妈我犯了错你会原谅我吗? 我已经踏上了末路别人眼中的亡命之徒哪里还有我的藏身处? 我的兄弟离我远去我还傻呼呼的相信道义所谓的人性莫非要用血和泪来换取教训不想再混下去想说干完这一票就不再撩下去想着想着我的眼泪就流不停出发啦不要问那路在哪? 迎风向前是唯一的方法出发啦不想问那路在哪? 运命哎呀什么关卡? 当车声隆隆梦开始阵痛它卷起了风重新雕塑每个面孔夜雾那么浓开阔也汹涌有一种预感路的终点是迷宫喂小子我想我大概明白你的意思那些发生在你身上的曾经以不同的面貌也在我生命里出现过好几次对此我并无更高明的解释只是觉得今天说不定是个合适的日子我们就各自用舒服的姿势用擅长的方式给人生我们的不管是一种告解还是一份答辩词人再有本事也难抵抗命运的不仁慈这道理再简单不过接不接受是另外一回事真爱并非不来它只是被无预警的恶意的延迟不要让某个女人做的蠢事变成你自己与自己的争执为什么该有的都有还是觉得不够天呀该不会是贪心的念头为什么拼了命地工作拼了命地追梦到头来原地没有动过为什么万里晴空下的面孔庸庸碌碌不开心地锁着眉头要向谁哭诉为什么想去看场电影该死的台风偏偏选在每一个的周末为什么这个世界上就是有人穷得发疯有人富有把钞票当作了枕头为什么新闻里鼻酸故事只为了偷面包给妈妈充饥的小偷为什么一百个为什么变成一千个一万个十万个为什么为什么我想破头写不出个鸟念念念我为了什么我们都不必在意未来的样子像是精神病患写的诗或是烟花绽放的节日随它去吧我们都只活一次呼吸呼吸呼吸呼一切曳然而止真理在荒谬被证实以前都只是暗室里的装饰只有当眼前亮起来了以后才有机会彰显它的价值不是谁能决定的该漫游还是冲刺我们都在海里我觉得我们像沙子你说的亡命之徒是不是大概就是这个意思出发啦不要问那路在哪(亡命之徒可会全力以赴) 迎风向前是唯一的方法(是不是穷途末路有没有藏身之处) 出发啦不想问那路在哪(亡命之徒逃亡要全力以赴) 运命哎啊什么关卡(喘息在穷途末路给我个藏身之处) 当车声隆隆梦开始阵痛(亡命之徒可会全力以赴) 它卷起了风重新雕塑每个面孔(是不是穷途末路有没有藏身之处) 夜雾那么浓开阔也汹涌(亡命之徒逃亡要全力以赴) 有一种预感路的终点是迷宫(喘息在穷途末路给我个藏身之处) * 真的很对不起哦～最近又没有更新了。哎哟～真的很该打。不过我可是有理由的哦～ * 考试嘛～而且还是预考哦～当然要全神贯注了。所以这段时间，一直到马来人新年为止，我都不是很能常常更新。所以，就抱歉啦～ * 怎样都好，希望全部SPM考生们，要加油哦！别让任何东西成为你的绊脚石。要全力以赴！！！加油！！！ 12:19 ·