It's amazing that i still feel MJ is still living.
I guess i just miss him very much...

I didnt get to watch MJ memorial live.
Cause it's too late for me, as i had to be at school for the whole day.
But i did get to watch repeat.

It was really quite touching.
Even though i didnt cry, i feel my heart is aching.
But i know, now, he's our guardian angel now.
He'll look at us from up there.
We'll always be blessed by him.

Here's some video clip where i almost let go my tears.








Especially when Usher sangs with emotionally, i had to let go a few drops too...

*
Before that, i also watch BET Awards.
Where they suddenly switch gear to paying tribute to MJ.

With comparison, i love Jamie Foxx and Ne-yo's version of "I'll Be There" more than Mariah Carey's version.
It's so touchy.
Of course, i really tear up for this one.
Probably, this is better than anyone sings, so far.

*
Still again, RIP MJ.
We will love you forever!!!
Have a good night sleep now.
As you wont wake up from any bad nightmares anymore.
Sleep peacefully.

Thank you for everything.
We will always salute you.
You are not only the the King of Pop or The Greatest Entertainer, you are The World!
R.I.P, Michael Jackson.

昨天从啦啦队比赛回来。

今年学校派两支队：Cyclonez和 Sparkz。
唉～
输到惨惨。
就连我看好的Cyclonez也令我有点失望。

不过，没关系！
明年再来！
我一定会去支持你们的！
加油！ ^^
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最近发现自己变到静了很多。
不像以前那样爱吵吵闹闹。
不懂为什么会酱。

就是觉得很累很累。
有时真的很想躺在床上，听王力宏的歌过日子算了。
很懒起身温习。
可是考试日期一直在脑海转。
真的很累哦。。。
*
还有，最近不知道是电脑还是什么啦～
一直有问题。
唉～
我又不想再浪费时间去弄了。
可是又要用。
怎么办？

看就直接酱算了。
可能明年就要出国了。
就熬着这个时间啦～

"Tahniah! Anda telah dipilih!"
WTF!!!
I've been chosen randomly to National Service.

Argh~
It's so irritating.
I wish i'll come out some good reason to avoid it.
Buddha bless me. ><
*
Nowadays, started to do revision.
Dont ask me why.
I just have this urge to study.
Guess i dont want disappoint people anymore.
Not to myself especially.

Starting with Sej.
Then i'll go weeks by weeks studying different subject.

This Friday is School Open Day.
Parents are allow to come to school and take our report card.
I guess i've already predicted what my parent will react.
I just want the courage to face their sad face.
*
I'm going to meet him this week. ^^
A little thrill.
I mean, it's so hard to meet each other.

Kinda miss his smile.
His touch.
His voice. (Even though we chat every night either phone or sms)
His gentleness.

Man~ i do fell for this trap.
But i dont wanna get out from it.
The only thing i hope is, he wont be fooling around my heart.

厚～
真的在怀疑自己到底哪里做错东西！
为什么Pn Wxxx一直好像在找我的麻烦？
先是耳环，再来现在是指甲。

我到底哪里得罪了你！
我又没有做错东西！

只能说你现在很幸运。
我现在正在学着忍脾气。
不然，我的三字经早就压死你了！
厚～
（深呼吸～吸～呼～）
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至今还是很难相信Mj酱就离开了我们。
心情还真有点难恢复。
现在每天都在追新闻。
一幅报导要看上两三回。
仿佛在催眠我自己。
真的还很难过。

他。。。永远都留在我心中。

气死我了！！！
死Pn. Wxxx，你最好不要给我看到你带耳环！
也最好不要让你的女儿穿耳环！

妈的！
没收我的耳环！
还说什么：“人家都是带一对一对的，为什么你要带到3个？”
你知道，当你说这句话时，我差点笑出来。
既然你要我带一对，那就是说没收一个就好了。
还误会我穿了两对耳环！
天啊～
我看你老到眼睛花花了。

你真的令我想笑又生气！
*
最近H1N1满天飞。
真的有点怕怕。

今天听到我们的前任班主任发烧了。
而且她还从澳洲回来而已。
天啊～

菩萨保佑，上帝保佑，阿拉保佑，千万不可让她得病。
我还想要上课的！
不要啊～

We human being are such a weird creature.
We can lose everything with one words.
Trust, love, caring, a place to lie on...
Without taking action seriously to our words, cost us more.

I really dont understand what is wrong with their mind.
It's like they can bear everything to be gone away.
But when things happen, they start to fear.
They'll die seeking for it.

I want to know what happen.
Why cant you see this when you did?
How strong can you afford this?
What motivates you in future?
When is that moment when i can see you as a real man?
Who is the person that you hurt most?

Please wake up from this dream.
Think deeply and wisely with your choices.
You've gotta be strong and confidence with your every action.

I want to see you as a real man again.
I hate the way you are right now.
Please...